I'm new here and really just wanted to say hi. I have been wanting to meet other kin who are Elvin but had no idea where to go. Its nice to see a place like this. I'm still struggling with talking about everything I am remembering and have only my husband to speak with. He is very helpful in listening but I wonder how much he can really understand. I imagine many here must go through this same thing.

Does one ever stop feeling a doubt? Part of me knows I am an Elf. When I write my memories down I feel connected and without a single doubt but when I try to share them I am unsure of repercussions. So even here I only feel safe with the anonymity of my handle.

I am setting up a website where I am going to document everything I am learning as well as the life I remember in the hopes it will help others in their journey. I plan to post links when its ready. I have been writing a scroll (yes, i make scrolls, very old school lol.) currently only equal to 7 pages but there is a lot more to be typed into the computer. I print it because well the handwriting gets bad when your hand cramps. Printing also allows my to use beatiful fonts and add my background designs. I have done it in word and it will be uploaded to the site for those who want a copy. It will also be able to be read on the site as well.

I started writing this one because I remember a religion/way of thought. I say religion because I don't know really a better word for it. It has history, their creation beliefs on where Elves came from originally and how we continued. Everything started coming back after I did a deep pastlife regression with hypnosis and remembered my Elvin life during 625 BC. It seems that there had been a war about 30 years prior that was basically lost and Elves went into hiding. In the group my parents were in there were 3 ships each originally having 50 Elves. They traveled for 5 years trying to find a place to hide and ended up in what is now known as Laos. They settled on the coast there. I was 5 years old when they landed. I don't remember it though. I remember growing up there. When I was about 25 the colony was attacked by a warlord who was taking over the country. Most were killed, those who were there and not killed were taken as slaves. I wasn't there during the attack but I remember coming back a seeing the aftermath. They took everything of value as well as my sister. I assumed this when I didn't find her body with my parents.
I had lived a very sheltered life in the peace and solitude of our colony. We did interact with the world around us really. The Elders didn't trust outsiders but never really told us why. So when I went to find my lost sister (who was much more beautiful than I was) I didn't think it would be as dangerous as the world was. It was then I learned about how Elves were taken for their beauty and ...used. Because of harsh treatment they usually only lived about a year. Many times opium was used to keep them ....submissive. Ironically after remembering this I found out that even in the bible there are references to women with Elvin beauty.
Long story short I managed to hire a Phonetician ship to help me find my sister. We followed a few leads but nothing ever came of it. I spent 15 years looking for any survivors but never found anyone. I only heard stories and rumors about how things were in the world of slave trading. During that time however I feel in love with the captain who name translated to mean Saffron. He came from a middle class family that had a decent name and owned his ship. I was pregnant 3 times but never bore a child. When we decided to marry he took me to meet his family. They were not happy. They saw me as a disgrace to their name and would never approve. His mother and older brother were very out spoken about this. I remember her looking at me as though I had soiled her house and very presence by being there. The last memory I have is stand in front of a square pond maybe three feet deep that was in the back of Saffrons family house. His brother was with me and I remember a sicking smile but there are gaps in this memory because the next thing I remember is seeing everything from above, my body was floating face down in the pool, Saffron was yelling at his brother and his brother was saying something along the lines of how it was for his own good and how he knew what was best.
That was the end of my life. Somehow though Saffron and I manged to meet in this life. He is my husband now. We have the children we wanted and have left the family issues which followed behind. We both feel as though we a fixing the errors and losses from before. We are even planning to renew our vows as Saffron and Anaiya would have if they had the chance to marry. I have been planing and Elvin wedding for about a year. My husband is going to dress in Phonetician clothing fitting the station he had.

I really had just planned to say hi but there's my life lol. I'd really like know what every one thinks. I will also have the hypnosis CD for download for others who would like to remember more. I am going to put it on mp3 and zip it for easy download. If any one would like a copy before the site is done let me know and I'll send you a link where you can download it from. I had my doubts as to if it would work but it really is amazing. I paid for the CD but I give copies to help others remember. I feel its the least I can do.

For any who are interested in the scroll I am putting together or research I have on the evidence of Elvin existence please let me know I can again send a link. Most of whats there currently history wise has to do with the first Elves created, their lives and how they ascended to the .. well I am still unsure of the word to call it. They ascended to a higher existence. Sorry I am still learning this part. There are many Elves who ascended and can be communicated with. They are the ones giving me the information I just write down as I am told. Hence I am the Scribe. I wish I could say I was as enlightened as they as but then if I were I would not be here would I.

I have taken what they are teaching me and accepted it as my path to follow. I created my altar as it would be in a personal temple. I am also trying to follow the guides the give me as far as rules for attire, behaviors, and so forth. It may sound eccentric perhaps to follow the religious practices that were lost 2,500 years ago but I find when I do there is a peace inside of me. I feel connected to our Ancestors and I feel complete for the first time in my life.